Upon returning
Posted under: All at once the breath went from me as i connected all of the occurrences back to you.
Your name.
Your touch.
Your fault.
It simply couldn’t have been mine.
I was simultaneously split into a million bemused shards and also wholer than I had been for some time. I remember at university during the heady days of social and substance exploration -
- the night I wandered away from the camp fire out in the bush where there was nothing but sky and stars and fire.The sky turned white. The stars burnt black. It was a negative of myself there, far below and insignificant on earth but more positive than ever and it was then I realised that at once I was one and many like my epiphany of today.
However corporate life and responsibility over the following decade had beaten it out of me and then you reminded me and bought it into my here and now.
And now when I think back to that long ago girl who stood beneath a snow white sky with stars burning black holes in it’s veneer, barefooted and wild haired I no longer mourn the losing of her but rejoice in her return.